Midnight talk


I just spent two hours talking outside on the front steps of my apartment with Ashley. She's been taking certain developments in her life rather hard, and obviously needed somebody to talk to. I love having conversations like that. I love being able to put my life completely on hold to help other people. Basically, I have a very real need to be needed by others. By putting myself out there to listen to people's problems, help in any way I can, and make personal sacrifices for them, it's almost like I actually am serving my own interests as much as theirs, because of the joy I get out of it. I can't imagine myself acting any other way.

Ashley is sort of the same way, but just in a waaaaay more proactive manner. Honestly, the girl just works herself to the bone and then blames herself when any little thing goes wrong, as if it was caused by some shortcoming or flaw in her character. This belief is totally illogical and unfounded, of course, but it's nigh impossible to make her understand that. I hoped I helped a little bit.

Part of her problem seems to be that she doesn't know how to chill. Now, I'm probably the wrong person to talk to, because I chill far too much. I could do with a dose of hard work and activity in my life. But Ash is completely the opposite. "I don't think I know how to do nothing," she said. Well, I'm making it my business to teach her. At least to SOME degree.

Anyway, my need to be needed was fully satisfied tonight, as I got phone calls from about six different people wanting to talk to me about various things they wanted me to do. And I had to put aside my plans to play some serious Guild Wars online with my friend Nick. I was, however, able to watch LeBron and Gilbert Arenas go head to head and LeBron and the Cavs squeak out the win in overtime. GREAT game.

I'm pooped.

1 Response to Midnight talk

  1. Shae says:

    It still amazes my how good of a friend you are to everyone. It's a very admirable quality that I hope you continue